Sunday, July 24, 2011

Happy Birthday!

Today is Alex's 30th birthday! He is feeling better and better everyday and is definitely gaining his appetite back! We travelled to Oklahoma on Thursday to bring Nonni (my mom/Donita) home and go to Robbi and Jack's baby shower (my sister-in-law and her first baby, due in September). We had a big birthday dinner with the family on Friday night and then Alex and I went on a "date night" to our favorite Italian restaurant for his birthday last night. It was yummy and we were so glad that Alex was able to enjoy eating once again.

We met with Dr. Loftus for well over an hour on Monday, discussing his history and treatment options for the future. On Tuesday, Dr. Devine said he was VERY pleased with how well Alex is healing after surgery. We talked with him a bit about his expectations regarding weight gain and then were back over the meet with Dr. Loftus regarding some concerning bloodwork from the day before. Alex's liver enzymes are elevated, which could be from residual inflammation in his biliary duct around where his ulcer is located in the duodenum OR it could be a result of Tylenol use, medications and dehydration. After some further testing (ultrasound), Dr. Loftus determined that it was difficult to tell which was the culprit. His biliary duct is slightly dilated/more open than when they measured it in the hospital, but not by much. There was no obvious obstruction, so he wants Alex to get frequent bloodwork, stop taking Tylenol and one of his medications and see how his labs look in the next few weeks. If that takes care of the problem, we won't need to return to MN until around early November. If the bloodwork is still of concern, we may need to return in the next few weeks.

Alex is having a great birthday so far. We ate at his favorite breakfast joint, First Watch, this morning after church. Lydia has given him an extra dose of birthday "muah's" (kisses) all day. He is taking advantage of Lydia's naptime with a little birthday nap of his own. ;) We will be coming back to KC tomorrow and plan on staying put for a while! It will be so nice to be home! Alex plans on starting back at work in a couple of weeks. I know he looks forward to getting back into the swing of things.

So sorry again for the gap in updates! We hope to have more good news to come as Alex continues to heal and recover.

Love and blessings to you all!

Sunday, July 10, 2011

Halfway Home

Alex was discharged from the hospital on Thursday and continues to do very well! He has certain times of the day where he is more tired than others, but is gaining strength back more and more every day. We are at Grandma and Grandpa Hendrickson's house in Iowa to spend a couple of days resting. We decided that it would be much more comfortable to be around family, but still not too far away from Rochester just in case something comes up. We will be returning home on Tuesday for a few days, then it is back up to Rochester for follow up appointments with Dr. Loftus and Dr. Devine the next week.

Short update, just wanted to let you all know we are almost home!!!!

Love to you all :)

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

To Do: Eat, Eat and Eat

First bites! YUMMMMMM!



Sorry it has taken so long to write an update, but we have been busy bees around here! Alex is doing GREAT! He is up most of the day either walking or sitting in his chair. They removed his NG tube on the 4th and he tolerated his own secretions very well throughout the day and night. Yesterday, he started with clear liquids and was on a full liquid diet and did great with his Frosty and oatmeal. The doctors were just in this morning and changed him to a regular diet for breakfast this morning! Yea! They want him to eat, eat and eat today to see how his body is able to handle digestion through his new connection. The doctors anticipate that if he does well with the food today, they will discontinue the TPN and he may be discharged tomorrow!





God is so good...he has provided just what we asked for....NO nausea and very well-controlled pain. I wish I could find the words that would adequately express the immense feelings of gratitude we have for all of the love and support that has surrounded Alex. Thank you again to our prayer warriors across the country.



Love, hugs and kisses to all of you! Below are just some fun pictures of Alex and Lydia. :)



Puzzle, Lydia after "tubbie" and bed head!

Sunday, July 3, 2011

Little Miss Visits Daddy


Lydia came by for a quick visit yesterday, but was fast asleep by the time she got up to the room. She was SO excited when she woke up and saw Daddy right next to her! Below are some pictures of her signing his Mayo Clinic pillow (which happened to include her shirt, unfortunately!) and giving it to Daddy.




Dr. Devine was in this morning and was very pleased with the way his incision appears to be healing. They are planning to clamp his NG tube (that is currently draining his stomach) tomorrow. Depending how he tolerates that, they will decide whether he is ready to start on some liquids and may even remove the tube then as well.


Alex continues to feel pretty good. He is starting to get very hungry and is really looking forward to being able to drink some tomorrow.


More later...I am being sent on a paper run :). Love to you all...


GAR

Saturday, July 2, 2011

These Socks are Made for Walkin'...& That's Just What They'll Do...


Alex is doing great this morning! He had oxygen and several other tubes removed this morning before he went on his first walk. He did great, walking at least 200 yards round trip!





Now he is sitting in his chair reading the newspaper!


Lydia should be up with Carol and Brett any minute now, so hopefully I can add some pictures of them as well. Dr. Devine and his team came by this morning to check on him. Everything is going very well. His pain is well-controlled with his IV pain medications. He will switch back to oral meds once he starts drinking liquids again on Sunday or Monday. Dr. Devine just reiterated that we are going to "take it very slow"...which sounds like a great idea!

Friday, July 1, 2011

"Devine" Intervention

Just spoke with Dr. Devine....everything went great! He was able to get through the adhesions from previous surgeries fairly easily and did not see anything unexpected. He actually said from a Crohn's standpoint, he looked pretty good other than the one area in the duodenum! He did perform 4 stricturoplasties on 4 areas of small bowel that were significantly narrowed. This is where he cuts the area and stitches it back together so it is open widely for material to pass through. Dr. Devine said the surgery would have been much shorter had it not been for that part of the surgery.

Dr. Devine also said we would be taking things very slowly for the next few days. He will stay on his TPN, waiting until Sunday or Monday to try liquids for the first time. This is when he may start to get nauseated, depending on how he tolerates the liquids passing through the new anastomosis (connection). From there they will just slowly increase his diet until he is tolerating soft solids well. At this point, they will decide if he is able to stop the TPN and get enough of his nutrition orally.

Prayer requests now include LOTS of praise for a successful surgery!!! Also, quick and thorough healing, management of any pain, and (heck, let's go for it...) NO nausea. Thank you so much to all of Alex's prayer warriors out there. You are all so dear to us and essential to Alex's healing!

Out of Surgery

Alex went into surgery @ about 3:30 this afternoon (much later than we anticipated). They let me go into pre-op with him while they prepped him for surgery. We got to talk with the anesthesiologists (there were several) and nurses that would be in the room with him. We were also able to say a prayer for both Alex and the surgical team right before they wheeled him out of pre-op. They gave him some anesthesia before he went into the OR so they could do his "Spinal", which will control pain post-op.

He was brought to recovery @ 6:30. They said he would be in recovery for about 2 hours, so I am expecting him back up in the room in another 30-45 minutes. I got one update at about 5:15 from the "communicating nurse" (Sarah) that just said the doctor reported that all was going well and that Dr. Devine was proceeding as planned. Sarah said that hearing less is more from Dr. Devine...that he typically only sends lots of updates out if there are unplanned events. If we don't hear much, that we should assume that all is going great and things are going as planned.

More to come after I speak with the Dr...

It is Well...

We are still waiting for Alex to go into surgery. According to Dr. Devine's nurse practitioner, his first surgical case is taking more time than originally anticipated.

Yesterday, as I was leaving the hospital, the song "It is Well with My Soul" was playing on the radio. Peace surrounded my heart as I listened. The whole hymn is a great one, but these beginning words seemed to resonate the most-

"When peace, like a river, attendeth my way
When sorrows like sea billows roll;
Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say,
It is well, it is well, with my soul"
...
"...though trials should come,
Let this blessed assurance control,
That Christ has regarded my helpless estate,
And hath shed his own blood for my soul."

Here's one version by Chris Rice...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cPPSG_SpojY

What a great hymn. We have an awesome small group at our church and one of the ladies who is a part of that group is a singer with a beautiful voice. She sang "Give me Jesus" at our last meeting as a prayer for Alex and I. It was awesome. As I listened to this song yesterday, I couldn't help but hear her voice singing as if she was right there with us. Thank you, Vernia.

Thank you again for all of your prayers. Maybe we should add strength, focus and discernment for Dr. Devine and his team since it sounds like Alex will be following an unanticipatedly complicated case.

We will keep you updated as to when he heads into surgery.
Love to you all!

Thursday, June 30, 2011

Surgery

Well, about two seconds after the last post went up, the GI doc came in to go over Alex's EGD. The ulceration in his duodenum is severe with patchy ulceration throughout the second portion of his duodenum (again, the first part of his small intestines). We had a long conversation about our options, which really just boil down to surgery. Medications along with strict NPO (nothing by mouth) and TPN was our only other option, but the likelihood of the ulcerations sufficiently healing along with the increased infection risk from all the medications (steroids) make for a risky, and therefore not good, second option.

Alex is scheduled for diversion surgery tomorrow morning with Dr. Devine and Dr. Erben. They will be attaching his jejunum (just below his duodenum) to another place on his stomach. This will allow things to bypass the area of inflammation/stenosis all together. While he is in surgery already, they will also attempt "stricturoplasty" on the strictures that Cleveland and Alex's KC GI doctor have been dilating endoscopically. They have been requiring dilation approximately every 6 wks, so this part of the surgery would allow those places in his small bowel to stay open without continual repetitive dilations. Here's the picture the surgeon drew for us regarding the diversion part of the surgery...

So, now to look for the blessings in all of this...Alex's surgeon, Dr. Devine, is an extremely talented surgeon, specializing in these types of surgeries for people with severe inflammatory bowel disease. He is not a man of many words, but he does seem to be very thorough. Our nurse's mother had surgery with him and she said over and over again that he was "the best of the best". The surgeons have very clearly communicated that this surgery is not without major risk. The duodenum is behind the rest of your small bowel, resting just over the spine. It is not "free-floating" like the rest of the small intestine, either. Alex has had multiple abdominal surgeries, so scar tissue and adhesions could make it difficult to get into the abdominal cavity in the first place. The duodenum is also where all of your bile, pancreatic and other "digestive juices" are dumped, so they will have to be very careful not to disturb all of those ducts (another reason they are diverting and not just removing the duodenum). Finally, healing could be difficult due to the immunosuppressive nature of the medications he has been taking for quite some time now.

Alex is overall doing pretty well. He knows this is what is necessary for him to get better and get back to living. I had a great time recalling Wooderson quotes (Dazed and Confused, circa early '90's) with Alex while he was in recovery from a procedure today. Here was his favorite...

"You just gotta keep livin' man...L-I-V-I-N". :) :) :)

Not quite as profound as scripture, but it definitely made him giggle (more than once) today.

Surgeon was just in. Alex will be the second case in the morning. We will transfer to Methodist hospital for the surgery (still Mayo) with surgery starting somewhere are 10am-12. Dr. Devine said it would probably take between 2-3 hours.

Thank you all for your prayers. Specific prayer requests are...
1. Successful surgery with as little intestine involved as possible.
2. Wisdom and guidance for the surgeons.
3. Calm, peace and faith as he goes into surgery tomorrow.

Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Sweet tea and Milk

Alex started his TPN here at the hospital last night. They allowed us to use our home TPN the night before since the "TPN team" was gone by the time we got up to our room. Mayo separates the lipids from the rest of the TPN like Cleveland did. However, they added iron to it this time. So...it ends up looking a lot like tea (sweet, of course!) and milk rather than Gatorade and Crisco ;).

The colorectal surgeons and GI doctors were both in and out yesterday. The surgeons were in first to get history, past surgical reports/records and discuss potential surgical options. Then the GI doctor, Dr. Alexander (great name, huh?), was in to discuss the overall treatment plan. He was very nice and helpful, discussing "one step at a time" treatment options, which is much less overwhelming. Dr. Alexander said his role is really to address Alex's current needs of resolving the obstruction. He stated that Dr. Loftus has more experience with the long-term treatment options, so he will be determining the future treatment plan with us on an outpatient basis (as previously planned).

Dr. Loftus and Dr. Alexander went over Alex's case yesterday and came up with this plan together-Dr. Alexander will be doing an EGD (esophagogastroduodenoscopy...you can see why they abbreviate!) this morning to assess how his stomach and duodenum look after they drained or "decompressed" with the NG tube and treated with several rounds of IV antacid medications. He will be assessing if the obstructed area is inflammation from the ulcer, a stricture or both. From there he can determine what we should do to correct it (meds, dilation, surgery or a combination). We really have no way of knowing how long Alex will be in the hospital until we know more from the endoscopy.

Again, thank you all for your prayers. I think Alex will feel better once there is a concrete plan in the works. Please continue to pray for the previous requests-Peace, calm and comfort for Alex and wisdom and guidance for the doctors. All of the doctors have been great about giving us time to ask questions and voice concerns about potential treatment plans. It is such a blessing to have providers who listen well and explain treatments thoroughly.

Love to you all...

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Mayo

We took Alex to the Mayo ER yesterday afternoon since we were not yet able to move his appointment to an earlier date. We drove up to Grandma and Grandpa Hendrickson's in Iowa on Sunday evening and then on up to Rochester that next day. Alex was admitted after some bloodwork, a CT scan and 8 hours of sitting in the ER.

Basically, we found out that the inflammation in his duodenum is not allowing much, if anything, to pass through and his stomach was therefore stretching out (distending) to a VERY abnormal size...VERY abnormal. The doc showed us the CT images and it easily took up 3 quarters of his abdomen. He said it was the largest stomach he had ever seen. So they placed an NG tube (tube through nose to tummy) to drain all of the excess fluid/residue that was not able to otherwise pass. Alex was not very excited about this, but it was absolutely necessary. He has had an NG tube in the past, but was not awake when they placed it. He got through it and I think feels much better now that there has been LOTS of fluid drained out of his tummy. The GI doctors will be in this morning to help come up with a plan for the area of obstruction.

Meanwhile, Lydia seems to be having a fantastic time on her Minnesota vaca with Nana. They went on the BUS to Walmart (fun!), played in the sand, saw ducks, went on walks, etc, etc, etc yesterday. She got a new bib that says "I'm a hoot!" with a picture of an owl :) :) :) "Owl" is her new favorite word and she's a little obsessed with birds in general (all of which she calls "owls" now), so it was very fitting! We are staying in an apartment that is just a couple of miles from the hospital. It has 2 bedrooms, a full kitchen and plenty of room for her to explore. It has been tremendously helpful to have Carol here to watch her while Alex and I are at the hospital!

Our only prayer requests right now are peace, calm and decreased anxiety for Alex and wisdom and guidance for the doctors who will decide on next treatment steps. Oh...and Alex's room number...316 :). A nice reminder of a favorite verse :).

Thank you all for your continued prayers and support. We should know more by the middle-end of the day today. Love to you all...

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Good News/Bad News

Good news...We found out last week that Alex has had an appointment scheduled with Dr. Loftus @ Mayo since June 8th! The bad news...that appointment is for July 18th. Alex simply cannot wait another month to be seen. So, we have since been in the process of trying to get that appointment moved up to a sooner date. Alex's GI doctor and primary care doctor have both called, letters have been mailed, and faxes of records have been sent. Dr. Loftus has been out of the clinic for awhile and is returning tomorrow (Wednesday), so we REALLY would like to ask specifically for your prayers that he will receive all of this information and be able to move Alex's appointment up to a closer date.

Alex is tolerating his TPN very well, and has even had it changed to where it runs for only 14 hours now instead of 18. If his labs from today check out okay, they may move him down to a 12 hour cycle on Thursday. He continues to have trouble tolerating food. He was discharged from the hospital with a regular diet and has been taking it very slow on eating. He eats about one small snack/meal a day. He is trying to stick with the "white" things that the doctor suggested-white potatoes, white bread, white rice, cereals, etc. You know...all of those things that the rest of us are trying to avoid in an effort to be "healthy" ;). He definitely cannot have any "whole grain" breads, fruits or veggies as they are just too hard to digest. His difficulty digesting even these small snacks indicates that he is still having too much inflammation to pass food through his digestive tract efficiently. As far as we know now, the most severe inflammation is in the very first part of the small intestine where it meets the stomach (the duodenum). This is where the most recent endoscopy and the upper GI test showed the newest and most significant areas of inflammation and ulceration.

So...specific prayer requests for tonight are...
1. Decreased swelling, increased nutrition, and overall healing of Alex's body, spirit and mind. He is so strong and fighting so hard, but I know all of this takes much more than just a physical toll on him.
2. That Dr. Loftus will quickly be able to review all of the information and understand the urgency and importance of squeezing Alex into an earlier appointment time.
3. Confidence, trust and peace that God is in control...keeping fear, worry and anxiety at bay.

Thank you all so much for your continued support. Love to you all!

Monday, June 13, 2011

TPN and Stretcher Bearers

We got home from the hospital Sunday late afternoon/early evening. Discharge from the hospital was fairly painless, which is always nice! Alex's home health nurse was here within 10 minutes of when we walked in the door to refresh us on how to mix and hook up the TPN ourselves. It all came back to us way too easily... The home health nurses are the same ones he saw to get his Remicade infusions at the infusion pharmacy. They all know us and Alex knows all of them, which makes it much easier if questions do come up.

Alex felt okay today. Right now his TPN runs from 8pm-2pm, but they will slowly "ramp up" the infusion time to where he is only hooked up for 12 hours at a time (at night). He seemed more fatigued today when he wasn't "hooked up" and had a bit of a headache in the early evening. He did feel up to going to the grocery store this afternoon, but was pretty worn out by the time we got home. It was your typical hot and humid Kansas day, so I think the heat just zapped him! The nurses are coming by the house tomorrow to change his dressing and draw blood for labs, so we will ask them about the fatigue then.

Mom (Donita) has been here helping with Lydia since last week, which has been so nice. Dale came in town to help with a few things around the house and just to visit over the weekend as well. I think they both enjoyed their 1:1 time with Lydia a lot...and so did she :). Dad (Jim) will be here from Wednesday night to Friday to visit and help out, so he will get his fill of giggles, wagon rides and bubble blowing, too! Brett, Carol and Abbey have always been so helpful lending a hand to watch Lydia and we have a ton of sweet, sweet friends who have offered to do the same. We have had offers for dinners, yard work, babysitting, prayers, etc, etc...

At our church, our pastor often talks about who your "stretcher bearers" will be when it comes to times of crisis in your life. He is referring to the Biblical story (Mark 2 is my favorite version) of the paralyzed man whose friends carried him on a stretcher to be healed by Jesus. Only when they got to the home where Jesus was preaching, it was too crowded for them to actually reach Jesus. The man's friends then carried their paralyzed friend to the roof of the house, tore through the roof and lowered him right in front of Jesus...the only man who they knew could heal him. Jesus was "amazed by their faith" and healed the man on the spot. Not the faith of the paralyzed man, but the faith of his friends was responsible for this man's healing. We are so very blessed to have so many awesome "stretcher bearers" to carry Alex through to his healing, too.

So....thank you, again, to all of you for your continued faith that Alex's "Road to Recovery" will end in healing and restoration.

Saturday, June 11, 2011

Saturday update

Alex is feeling much, much better since the TPN started on Thursday! He is catching up on some much-needed sleep that he has missed out on with all of his recent tummy upsets. His weight has been down and going back up since his doctor's appointment on Tuesday. He looks better and better with every drip of the IV. We are still working on "ramping up" the TPN so that it runs closer to 12 hours vs. 24 hours per bag. Then it can run throughout the night and he can hook up to it at night and be "free" during the day (just like when he was on it in 2009).

A good majority of Alex's recent records along with a timeline of his history since diagnosis have been sent to Mayo. His KC doctor also put in a call to the doctor at Mayo last week. Hopefully we will hear something from them early next week.

Thank you to all of you who have offered meals, prayers and just your kind supportive words. We are so blessed to have so many caring people in our lives!

More to come...and hopefully from home!

Monday, June 6, 2011

Mayo bound

Well, it's about time for another update. Many of you have already heard, so stick with me while I fill everyone else in...

Alex was admitted to the hospital during our last visit to Cleveland in early March. Dr. Shen dilated some strictures in his small intestine and then admitted him for blood transfusions because of severe anemia. He also administered IV Ig-a blood product that he felt would increase Alex's endurance and overall energy. Unexpected hospital admissions are never fun....


Upon returning to KC, Alex's local GI doc (Dr. Doumit) initiated a new Crohn's medication that is similar to the Remicade that Alex has taken before. Some patients who do not respond to Remicade will respond to Humira. He also added another medication after his latest scopes for a more aggressive approach to medical treament. This is similar to the combination of drugs Alex was on in March of '09 when his disease was well-controlled and he felt so good.

For the lasts several months, we have been alternating between scopes in Cleveland and scopes here in KC about every 6 weeks or so to manage the dilation of the strictures and monitor disease activity with biopsies. Alex had a follow-up scope in late May (just recently) with Dr. Doumit. He was not tolerating food as well as he had been in the past, but had assumed it was due to his recurring strictures needing dilation again. Dr. Doumit actually discovered an ulcer in his lower stomach/upper intestine that was affecting his ability to empty his stomach and digest food effectively. He recommended a liquid diet and addition of medication to attempt to heal the ulcer. He also spoke with us at length about receiving another opinion as he felt like Dr. Shen had exhasted all treatment options as well. He has said several times that Alex's case is severe, likely the most complicated case even the doctors in Cleveland have seen.


After much discussion, research and prayer, Alex has decided that Mayo is the best choice, so it is off to Minnesota we go! We are awaiting an appointment with Dr. Loftus at Mayo, but in the meantime have initiated TPN (IV nutrition) at the hospital where our family practice doctor is located (Menorah Medical Center). Alex has maintained his weight with the liquid diet, but even this has been a struggle. He is very thin and any additional weight loss would not be good. The TPN will hopefully bulk him up a bit and give him the needed energy that he has lost since the liquid diet started.


Alex and I both want to say thank you for all of your many thoughts, prayers and kind words over the last couple of weeks as we have needed to make some big decisions. We cannot thank you enough for all of your support, love and kindness. We will start updating the blog more frequently...maybe then the posts won't have to include so much info-like this one!


Many of you have wanted to know what to pray for specifically, so here it is...
-Tolerance of the TPN so Alex can return home and manage it safely there
-Quick scheduling with Dr. Loftus
-Wisdom, clarity and guidance for us and the doctors as it is likely that even more big decisions are to come


Thank you again for everyone's support. We love you all! Oh, and Alex would like to add prayers for a future filled with Z-mans and fries at Oklahoma Joe's BBQ sooner rather than later :). If I didn't know better, I would swear smoked meat is the only thing he thinks about sometimes...

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Long Time!


Wow! It has been a long, long time since we wrote anything here! That just means that not much is going on! :) Yea! Or...that we have that precious little girl to keep us busy and not posting ;)


Actually, a lot of little things have happened over the last 1 1/2 years since the last post. Alex has a new GI doctor in St. Joe, MO (Dr. Doumit) who was Dr. Shen's (Cleveland GI doc) resident just a few years ago. We have traveled to St. Joe (about a 1-1 1/2 hour drive) several times since we started seeing him about 9 months ago. He is able to do many of the procedures Dr. Shen does in Cleveland. This should save us some trips! We couldn't be happier to have found a doctor in KC who understands the treatment plan and communicates so well with our Cleveland doctors. What a "coincidence" that one of Dr. Shen's own residents would be practicing nearby. We are so blessed. He is like our own little piece of Cleveland, just 13 hours closer ;).


On a sad note, Dr. Geisler, Alex's Cleveland surgeon left the clinic. We are not sure where he went, but he will be greatly missed. Hopefully we will find out more when we go back next time. Our next trip is planned for March 1st. We have been 4 times since his major surgery (I think...they all start to run together after a while!). Dr. Shen and a new surgeon are doing an exam under anesthesia during our next trip to dilate any areas of Alex's small intestine that have strictures and try a new (and somewhat experimental) procedure to close up some of his fistula tracts. Right now the main thing is to try and keep the strictures in his small intestine open so that more fistulas do not form and food can pass through his gut without blockages. We can tell when the strictures start getting tighter again b/c he has pain and vomits. Right now, he is able to go about 6 weeks-2 months between dilations. The plan is to alternate between seeing Dr. Doumit and Dr. Shen to scope, dilate and assess any changes from there.


Dr. Shen has given us the name of a doctor at the University of Chicago that is experimenting with stem cell transplants. Basically, they are finding that patients with co-morbid Crohn's and Leukemia who get stem cell transplants are cured of the Crohn's following the transplant. This is all in the very early stages of trials, but could be an option for Alex in the future, if necessary. Obviously, we are not anywhere near this option (thank goodness!) and this would be a near-last-resort treatment.


Above is a picture of the family over Christmas. We LOVE this little lady God has blessed us with. She is our sunshine through good days and bad! lydiasloop.blogspot.com is still up and running, and I promise to post more often on that as well. :) Love to you all!